Freckles.

I miss my mom.

I need a hug from noone but her right now. 

Brick by brick.

It is truely amazing how things can change from one day to another. One day I’m fine, the most happy and bubbly I could ever be and the next moment I’ll feel like all the energy has been sucked right out of me. I’m tired of trying. Tired of trying to convince myself that all this work is worth it, but is it really?

Justify yourself. Tell me, how is what I’m doing for YOU fair? How is it me putting myself on the line, giving my all and pouring myself out to you good, when the same and equal isn’t returned. For days, no months, I’ve been waiting. Waiting for that warm welcoming smile of yours to re-appear. I still wait for the explosion of my emotions when you hug me, when you speak to me and tell me you love me. For some reason, I can’t. I doubt the fact that you do, because of your actions. The way you talk, walk, and behave around me. There is a wall between us, and I want to knock it down..brick by brick. I want to close this distance and finally be back next to you where I belong. I want to feel the hair on the back of my neck fly up, get red shot cheeks when I hear you say my name. I want that again.